Home Free Me: April 2017

Torslanda, Gothenburg

March, month of the beginning of Spring in the northern hemisphere.

Although... here in Sweden, it didn't really feel like spring. Believe it or not, we had a few days of snow storm. It also happened just when the spring lilies started to bloom.

March was the last month of us spending time in Torslanda and I spent most of my time researching on childbirth. Something that I never really researched about before I knew I was pregnant. To my surprise, I found how modern medical science has been treating childbirth like an illness. Women in the modern days have been treated as if we have no capability to give birth, as if we have no several hundreds of years of experience in our DNA to go through labour. This sort of treatment infuses fear and anxiety to the mother in labour and possibly throughout the whole pregnancy.
Fear apparently is the cause of all complications in childbirth.

After elaborate research about parturition, I have decided to have a natural unassisted childbirth at home. With the privacy that Mats and I will be having, this will enable me to fell comfortable and relaxed enough to have an orgasmic childbirth as many women have also experienced. This is also something that is not commonly known in the general society, and possibly deemed as taboo to some people. But if conceiving a child is orgasmic, then why can't childbirth also be orgasmic, right?

It's really fascinating and mind blowing to me how childbirth has been treated in modern science. Throughout my life growing up and coming across women who went through processes of childbirth as well as seeing movies that includes parturition, childbirth has been something that frightens me. Everytime I hear someone's story, I cringe and never looked forward to the day when it will come to me. But now, my perspective has changed and I am very grateful for the elaborate research I have been doing.

Childbirth is as natural as our bowel movement and we don't need assistant when we go to the toilet doing number 2, right? We just need some time and space, some privacy, to go through the process. Which, in a sense, is the same as childbirth. The baby will come out when the baby is ready and he/she does not need to be forced out at a certain time that's convenient for the doctor or midwife, just because they don't want to be late for dinner or some other reason that practitioners like to stress time for.

I also trust that everything happens for a reason and whatever happens, happens cause it is meant to be. So I surrender myself to the universe and will go through the childbirth that will happen in the next few months, hopefully in the most natural manner and the most comfortable and relaxing manner for myself and our future child.

Anyway, as I said, I haven't been doing much activities but reading and researching, so here are some pictures of us spending most time at home.